Enjoy my more recent pictures...

Well, my lifes pretty much on the waiting period. After school got out, I now have to become what I knew I had to be sooner or later...so now im working my way out into the world...slowly but surely. Its been about 3 years of me living here in this part of Arizona, its mostly just farmland as far as you can see. Sometimes I miss Phoenix, and the life I used to have there. Being here can do things to you, it gives plenty of time for solitude...lonliness...and many other unpleasant thoughts that dont seem to go away.Another day of complete contemplation, trying to find a way to sustain myself and not feel so rotten. A complex situation had pinned me here, unable to do much, until just recently...I feel as if the feelings I had were with me all along, just growing worse as I moved here.I care not to bore you much more with myself, but what I mean is that theyre there...and I feel them.The helplessness...
Well, now that I have a car, things are starting to look up. I dont feel that it should be okay that after I have experienced the things that I have that I let them stay inside; I figure I can maybe help if I release them...into art.Things, that make you cry, or make you numb, things that scare you or make you wither inside...I think each and every person alive has felt this at liest once...searching for a way to live, that can easily become a way to want to die.
Does it make sense, that the things that are supposed to make us happy---pain us, and the things that pain us, help us to survive? This is one of the many questions I ask myself...and why we choose to be decadent instead of searching deep within our own haunted thoughts for a way to cure ourselves? We shy away...how long until the friends that would help us dont want to help anymore? I know that I am young--and you can easily ask yourelves 'what does he know.'
Whether or not how old I am...I choose unlike most, to find whatever I can down in my thoughts and ideas--to help people, that is what I know.In that if I have helped at liest one in any way possible, than the message through my art would have accomplished its goal.

Sorry, I tend to write like this...heh...

Otherwise, I try to make good artwork-lol. I was born into an artistic family, thankfully--my mother drew and sang, and from that I was inspired. She taught me enough to get me started, and from there I became enfatuated with it all. Events in my life that had meaning to me, I never thought to of put it to good use until just recently...powerful, parts of my life I wont forget, will now be drawn, and submitted in this gallery.

Well yeah, I hope you like whats coming soon *dances happily*~~okees, ill be quiet now and just let you look around. Uhmmn, be sure to check by again, thanks ^__^

(Oh yeah, my first DA website thats mostly Fantasy stuff: )

Hello everyone. Those of you that dont know me, I'm Cordis, and this here is my site for Deviant Art. Those of you that do know me, have seen my stuff at my first DA site called Flaccidsoul . Pretty odd name, ya think?
Well, onto my point. I believe that everyone is not just one thing. We are different shades, or facets...we're our own brand of ourselves; and we show that through these facets. Flaccidsoul, was a very odd name, it was at a time when I didnt know fully what I wanted to call myself, I love to draw fantasy art, but another part of myself wanted something...--more 'me'. Flaccidsoul was the part of myself that I wanted to introduce to everyone, but how...I felt as if I need another facet of myself to be shown to everyone.
I draw fantasy art, and thats nice n' all, but its just not me personally. I believe every artist has at liest one thing they want to communicate through thier artwork. My Fantasy art is a way I ignore how I feel, but drawing dark art is the way of letting it out. There is a type of truth to dark art that I admire; sure, not everything is dark in real life, but...my intentions for this DA site is to show you what goes on in my mind, and through that, maybe I can communicate something meaningful and helpful. There is at liest--in everyone of us, a side of ourself we dont like. We can either run from it, or learn from it (like Rafiki said on Lion King-lol).
Im going to take what I know & what I feel, deep down within myself, and im going to pull it out and show it to you. Everything that I do, I know that im not alone in, the message I hope to define in this DA site is the human struggle we all go through, be it one thing or another.Loss, Sacrifice, Patience, Weakness, Pain, Lonliness, Silence, Questions...and then theres the happy little things, friends, pets, and the events that are bad that make us just a little stronger and wizer; All what life is about, but was never taught to us at all. Its like a little phrase I had to learn, 'the things that should make us happy, pain us, and the things that should pain us, keep us alive." These things cant be taught, they have to be experienced and felt to be understood.Thats the difference between the two sides of myself, one is the Fantasy realm, where I love to be, but the other side of myself is supressed. It needs an outlet, hopefully to its upmost artistic merit.

Hrmmn, I hope that its good enough for you to come back, and not too blunt to be turned off by.


(P.s.- the name "Cor-Cordis" comes from the latin word meaning the heart, or the "seat of all emotion." It took forever to find something that seemed to fit, and wasnt already taken on Deviant Art [which I pick on the people openly that have the names Tool, Nocturna, CrestFallen, Holloweyes, Hallowedsky, Hollowsky and many others I wanted-lol]. Anyways, yes, that is the meaning behind the name.